Nausea and not from Sartre

Being sick is no fun. I am getting nauseous again, just after seeing the surgeon, just like last time. I have a lump in my throat that is not going away. I refuse to vomit my $20 Chinese Lo Mein dinner and am holding it down...but for how long? I have a new found sympathy for the folks in life that suffering from any affliction or malady.  The people that are permanently crippled or are suffering from pain. It seems that God can be cruel and capricious as to whom he picks to suffer. The good are sometimes punished just as much as the wicked. Why be good then? Because society also punishes the wicked.